I hear a lot of people say, ‘I am depressed.’
You have depression; you are not the depression. For instance you say, ‘I have a broken leg’ not ‘I am a broken leg’; ‘I have a cold’ not ‘I am the cold’. You have an illness but you are not the illness. It’s the ideology of being the illness that makes it more powerful; learning to separate yourself and your illness takes away some of its power. Don’t get me wrong, it won’t make the illness go away but who doesn’t want their identity back?
There came a point in my life a few weeks back where I was close to drifting away (the depression) but something kicked up inside me and fought for me. I learned in that moment that it doesn’t matter how bad or deep I get into an episode, I will always overcome the pressure of giving into the illness. I am not my illness.
There is you and then there is your illness.
I said in my blog 2018 that I was taking up fitness in order to gain some form of control and it’s working. On days where my depression makes me feel like I don’t want to get out of bed; I push through and I get up and out – I don’t even care if I only make it through a five minute workout; I still beat my depression even only if for a few seconds. In that five minutes I took control and my illness took a back seat.
Now, I’m not saying that everyone is at that point in their illness where they believe in themselves because depression and other mental illnesses can take that freedom away from you. But stay hopeful – my illness insisted I was a failure and that I would only be good for sleeping and drinking. Here I am years after my first panic attack and many months after getting a diagnosis – taking back control one day at a time.
You CAN and you WILL get through this.
You are not your illness.
There is you, and then there is your illness.